A Mother's Love

So last night as I sang Abigail to sleep I teared up. Her sweet smiling face looked up at me with so much trust in her eyes. She cooed right along with me, trying to join in my song.

When you get pregnant, you know that you will love your child and you can even feel that love grow as your child does inside of you. However, I don't think anyone can really explain to you the deep love that fills a mother's heart as she cares for her baby. Every diaper changed, every spit up cleaned, every hungry cry satisfied, every snuggle enjoyed and every smile returned only intensifies this protective love that flows from my heart!

When Abigail's little face lights up with a coo or smile, her eyes get so bright as she gazes up at me and I realize that her trust and love for me is so pure and true. She has no idea the many mistakes I will make in parenting or how often I may feel inadequate to exemplify Christ to her, but what she knows is that I'm Mommy and she is safe in my arms.

When I think of my love for Abigail it makes me think of Christ's love for me. Sometimes it's hard for me to fathom how He could ever love such a sinner as me. Yet, as His creation, I was made in His likeness and any love that I give to others is only a very small shadow of His deep, unchanging love for me! I love because He enables me to love. However imperfect my love is, His perfect love sets the standard for me. Christ teaches me how to love my husband and daughter as I observe His love.

"Oh the deep, deep love of Jesus; vast, unmeasured, boundless, free."

I have to ask myself, "If Christ's love for me is so true, pure, and perfect, do I trust Him? If Abigail can feel my love and return that with a pure trust, can I say the same for me when I think of Christ's love?" Trusting God and people is sometimes very difficult for me. My sinful flesh seeks to be in control instead of yielding myself to God's perfect plan and trusting that He truly knows best.

God is already using my daughter to teach me a little more about love and trust! I hope and pray that God will enable me to exemplify trust in Christ to my daughter as she grows into a young lady.

A Mother's love is such a small reflection of Christ, who is Love!